My darling friend Amy, her husband Andrew, and their precious Masha were my inspiration for finally getting around to posting this today. I read their love story this morning in bed and cried sweet tears of joy. A heart replenished... a young girl who KNOWS that she is loved... a family that is blessed to participate in her life from this day forward... I cried knowing that love is a great thing and that it makes miracles possible. I cried longing to love my babies wherever they are.
When I met Chris I liked a lot of things about him... I loved a lot of things about him, but I clearly remember the moment when I knew that I loved his heart... when I knew that I could trust my heart in his hands. We were in the car talking about this, that, and the other. I started talking about a book I had started reading. The book is by NPR's Scott Simon and is his adoption story. I said, "I would love to adopt one day. Having my sisters in my life has been such a blessing and I can't imagine not adopting children."
Chris responded with, "I'd like to adopt but..."
I have heard that "but" a hundred times before and I thought I knew what was coming next.
I'd like to adopt but... it's too expensive.
I'd like to adopt but... those kids have issues.
I'd like to adopt but... I don't know if I'd be able to love a child that didn't come from my loins.
I made a lot of assumptions in the millisecond that it took my future husband to finish his sentence and say exactly what my heart needed to hear. "I'd like to adopt but I'd rather adopt older children because it's harder for them to get placed in homes."
I'm sorry. What?!? You don't care about your loins being represented in this whole thing? You don't think it's only worth it to adopt if it's a baby and comes with no baggage? You just want to love the ones that need it?!?
I cried. I looked out the car window and tried to hide that I was crying. I was overwhelmed that I had found a man who shared my heart... a man who was ready for the crazy kind of love I wanted to share. I was sure that day, after only a few months of dating Chris, that he was the man that I wanted to walk beside for the rest of my life. He loves sweetly and with absolute devotion. I know that our future children will be blessed to call him Daddy.
We have some time ahead of us before we're ready to adopt... but we're moving that direction and making sacrifices now so that we can bring our kiddos home. So today as I read about Masha finally meeting her parents, I cried and thought of our kids and was overwhelmed with thankfulness. I am so very glad to have found my husband and we can't wait to find our kids wherever they may be.
"Do you want to do something beautiful for God? There is a person who needs you. This is your chance." - Mother Teresa
I’m only one. But still, I am one.
I cannot do everything, but still, I can do something.And because I cannot do everything,
I will not refuse to do the something that I can do.
– Edward Everett Hale
